2. The Transformation Begins!

I waited. …excited about what had just happend but also fearful of what I had just done. I waited…. and wondered why I had so quickly taken in this new Lite. I waited…and thought I felt something moving…not in MY person but in MY covering…..the extension to MY body that is cape like. I waited…..I have never had felt anything like this before and never had any feeling ever in this extension of MY being.

But it wasn’t a feeling like pain or heat or cold…it was more like a connected presence. I sensed that it was in my head but at the same time I sensed it was in MY extension…MY cape. I thought about it.I thought about the Lite. I thought about the Lite and it told me…no showed me it knew I thought about it. Something is piercing the blackness….I see and feel  something on MY extension…what is that? Something, some Lite just appeared on MY cape! MY mind is confused and thoughts are coming and going….the Lite on MY cape is coming and going…it’s forming and unforming…. I closed MY mind. I waited…..

I slowly opened my mind allowing only some small thoughts to form…it didn’t matter…the Lite was back. It was there again on MY cape..MY extension. I suddenly realized this new Lite wanted to show me something. But what? If MY thoughts were the initiator of the Lite on My cape how could it show me something if I didn’t think about anything? Maybe it didn’t need me to be the creator of thoughts….maybe it was taking over ME. Maybe…..maybe….

Fear!…. I am afraid! I made a mistake, a terrible mistake. I want the blackness back! MY mind is racing, whirling ….the Lite on MY cape is flashing, exploding, piercing the Blackness with a white Lite that almost cuts the dark. I want it OUT…I keep thinking I want it OUT….the Lite on MY cape is getting brighter, whiter…..it’s intensity increases as I fight to think it OUT….Get OUT..I am afraid! I want you OUT!…. the Lite starts to slow down its movement. The movement stops….a bright pattern starts to form on MY cape. It projects the Lite form into the Black……..and it forms a word…..the word is NO.

I waited………