74. On My Own

Liteworld….I felt alone again without MY Lite…it was like being back home; drifting from nowhere to nowhere. The rush of activity in the past day gave me no time to think about not being able to ask the Lite questions or have it make MY decisions. Make MY decisions…did the Lite actually direct me in every way? I relied on the Lite to provide guidance but…make every decision?  And I never really understood the comments about knowing the Lite before Liteworld. I have almost no memory of MY existence before the world of dark. Yet, there are times when MY Lite and Jolie’s Lite were in touch that a flash of some distant memory would appear in MY mind. I never gave it much thought as I believed it was something from their pasts that I saw. Never the less, I was on MY own.

There was power in Jolie’s Lite…power MY Lite didn’t have and couldn’t understand. MY Lite thought it was alone in the universe and was confused by the “Luminescence” form. At least that is what I felt before I lost MY Lite. I needed to evaluate the current situation and make some decisions quickly. It was clear to me now that Jolie’s Lite was not interested in our original mission and had no intentions of just modifying the humans religious belief system. It was in fact, going to destroy it.

There was little left of the humans from Mecca that were within the power range of the Lite Ring. This type of devastation would certainly convince the rest of  the planet that our mission here was more “mass destruction” than “mass change.”  It would, in fact, create a stronger bond to their religious beliefs thinking that our goal all along was to convert them to the dark side of Luminescence. That belief was confirmed by the expressions on the faces of the Spiritual Guides and Holy Men, two of which were wounded from from the recent projectile explosion. “Now they will listen to us.” It was a thought from the little one that didn’t surprise me.

I understood the rest of the Elite heard her as well and they were waiting to hear my response. I knew what I really wanted to say and tried hard not to project any thoughts that Jolie could pick up. At that moment I experienced the same type of feeling or uneasiness that I saw in the expressions of the Spiritual Guides when we first approached them….Fear!  She knew I did not have MY Lite. Her five words to ME confirmed what I thought….she wants or her Lite wants to begin the conversion of the humans on this planet whether they want to convert or not.

“Boss…I know the rest of the Elite and myself don’t want to see our planet destroyed. I like being an Elite…but I don’t want to kill any more of the people on my planet if I don’t have to. What she is doing with that other Lite is just plain….wrong.”  Stan was never shy about stating his opinion and we both knew Jolie was listening and then I realized that Stan responded to Jolie’s comment before I did.